Back in early July I received this "new song" from Matthew. I have now decided to post it on my site.  - poetheart 08/24/01

Sometimes I hate myself
Sometimes I just wanna be free
Sometimes I wanna cry
Sometimes I wanna die

Yet I love myself
And I crave the locks
I wanna laugh
And I wanna live

Complicated, frustrated
How can it get much worse than this?
Standing up in the middle of a crowded dining room
And cursing all the guests

Sometimes I'm the devil
Sometimes I don't wanna talk
Sometimes I can be mean
And sometimes I don't wanna be seen

Yet sometimes I'm a saint
And sometimes I'll share
Sometimes I can be nice
And sometimes I'll be there

Complicated, frustrated
How could it get much worse than this?
Standing up in the church
And realizing how much of your life you missed....

by Matthew D. Ward

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