"Before I Rest My Eyes to Sleep..."

By Amber Smith 1999

Just a few days ago I posted a poem called "I hear you" by 16 year old Amber Smith and there was a great response to it. Younger visitors to my site wrote in to tell me how much they liked Amber's poem and wanted to see me post more of her poems. I wrote back to Amber and she was kind enough to respond with this poem submission. Thanks. Poetheart 03/27/00

Just like this color,
I am barely seen.
I am not nice.
I am not mean.
I try to be sweet.
I try to be kind,
But if this continues,
I'll go out of my mind.
It's really not that bad.
It's not that rough.
I just try not to let it get to me.
That is why I try to stay tough.
I am not pretty.
I am not the smartest,
But all I can do
Is try my hardest.
I am not the best at everything.
I am not the worst.
I do not cry
When I'm not the first.
I am not a pouter.
I am not a whiner.
I am merely Just a minor.
I am not famous.
I am not "popular" at school.
I am not the boss,
But I have one rule.
I am not going to yell.
I am not going to pry.
I just want to dwell on the fact
That I don't like a lie.
I am not perfect
Although I try to be close.
Who is perfect?
Who really knows?
I am working on my social skills.
I am trying really hard.
Even if I don't get to you yet,
I am getting really far.
I am not a "brain" as you well know,
An athlete neither.
I am not an English whiz,
But I know you're not either.
I am an artist.
I am a painter.
I am a drawer.
I am a creator.
I am kind sometimes.
I am nice when I want to be.
I am a person.
I am nice when you are nice to me.
I do want you to notice me,
But only me for me.
I am a person,
As much of a person can be.
I am getting more enthusiastic.
I am getting more vivid.
I am getting even bolder.
I am no longer timid.
I am taking a great leap now.
I am taking off.
I am not in that deep slump
That I was once taught.
My creativity is blossoming.
I am getting brighter.
You cannot see me.
I am getting higher and higher.
As creative as I want to be,
As famous as desired,
I am not going to dwell
On the fact that I'm not admired.
I am getting sleepy now.
My eyes are weary.
If I do not sleep now,
My eyes will get teary.
I am going to bed now.
I am going to sleep tight.
I am going to dream now
And wish you a good night.

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